Tuesday, August 28, 2007

STOKING UP FOR WINTER

I hesitated in posting this. So often after a fresh post, visitors don't hop down to see the previous one, and I am really hoping that it won't get burried. But still, we are in the time of hot days and chill nights and I thought you'd like this.


STOKING UP FOR WINTER

We swallow sunshine while we can,
stoking up our solar souls,
laying by against the time,
when Summer goes,
and we, like moles,
burrow deep for warmer climes.

Friday, August 24, 2007

Wicker Loveseat

The assignment was simple: The protagonist finds a wicker loveseat in the middle of the road.
This is what I made of it.

Wicker Loveseat

Right out there on the road to Chopshaw, Alabama, straddling the center rut, was a wicker love seat. From a half mile away Wisson Berryboy thought it was a cow. It could have been a cow although pigs and chickens were more common on the Chopshaw Road. Either way Wisson didn’t give it much mind, and he kept on walking. The sun, even through the thin scrim of clouds, was a force against his face and he mostly looked down at the flat-packed, sand-dust shoulder. Such dust as he raised with his thick brown brogans settled quickly; no breeze.

From a quarter mile away Wisson determined that if it was a cow that he was seeing, it was a dead one, or at least a downer fixing to die. At a hundred yards he saw that it was furniture. When he drew parallel to it he stopped.

Some wicker is painted white and sits on a veranda and creaks when you first settle into it. Other wicker, older wicker, wicker that’s been retired from the veranda, might spend its last years out of doors, under a tree, fading into a soft, bleached, straw color. But this wicker, the wicker that Wisson Berryboy was studying, had been stained and finished to a dark red-brown that shined as though varnished or shellacked. Wisson had never seen wicker in a proper living room in a white man’s house, but he imagined that if ever that might happen, this was the piece that would fit.

With that thought Wisson began to consider what he should do. If he were to continue walking toward town and if something were to happen to this piece of wicker and if he had been seen near it, there might be blame. And at seventy-eight years, the last thing Wisson wanted was blame for something happening to a white man’s property. It didn’t look heavy and he decided to just move it to the side of the road and then walk on, but having taken only a single step he caught sight of a plume of dust rising from the road to the east. He stood by as the plume approached in the form of a brand new, black, DeSoto sedan. The car slowed and a man wearing a cream colored suit with a matching hat called from the window, “Why don’t you move that damn thing? Is it yours?”

“No, Sir,” said Wisson. “It’s not mine at all. I’m just minding it.”

“For who?”

“For Mister Dick.” Randolph Dick was a white man who Wisson considered might just have a set of wicker like this. And if he had such a set and this one piece had fallen to the road, and if he had seen Wisson walking, why it would be just natural that he would ask him to mind it until he could send someone to retrieve it. And surely if it were not Mister Dick himself, then it was another white man from not too far away who would have made the very same request.

“Randolph Dick?” asked the man. He consulted briefly with a woman sitting next to him. Then he said to Wisson, “I could take that loveseat to Randolph Dick myself. You could put it in my trunk and I could carry it to him.”

“Well, Sir, Mister Dick didn’t say nothing about moving this here furniture.” And that was the truth. Wisson Berryboy felt safer with the truth than with the merely plausible.

“So you’re just going to stand here and wait?”

“I’m just supposed to mind it for a while.”

“Fine,” said the man, clearly disgusted. The DeSoto kicked dust and left.

And now Wisson had a problem; having been seen with the love seat he could hardly leave it, but also having refused to have it moved he had made a certain commitment. He resolved to mind the furniture for a while as he had said. He pulled the loveseat to the shoulder and sat down on the ground next to it. It never occurred to him to sit on the loveseat itself. The wicker cast a dappled shadow and that was enough.

He must have dozed because he didn’t hear the clattering pre-war Ford until it was nearly upon him. In the Ford were three young men of varying shades of black, but all with the very same eyes. They were the sons of Pamela Bacon and they lived not too far from Chopshaw, down the Old Dam Road and a bit east. Wisson didn’t know they had a car now.

“Hey,” called the one who was driving.

“Hay is for horses,” said Wisson.

The driver’s door opened and the first lad slid out, all slow and loose in his limbs. The two others followed through the same door. “Well then, how do you do, Mister Berryboy? That better?”

Wisson nodded, “Better. When did you get a car? Is that your car?”

The second boy said, “Momma’s friend. He’s got two cars.”

The driver, Maurice, said, “Mr. Berryboy, how come is it that you’re sitting by the side of this road with a sofa?” The third son of Pamela Bacon snickered. His name was Charles.

“I’m to mind this here wicker loveseat for a little while for Mister Randolph Dick.”

“Is he paying you?” asked Charles.

“Yes,” said Wisson. “Mister Dick is paying me two dollars to mind it here until dark.”

“What happens after dark? Is he sending a car? How did it get here?”

“You don’t need to concern about any of that,” said Wisson. “That’s all Mister Dick’s business. And mine.”

“We’ll mind it with you,” said Maurice. “Keep you company.”

Wisson thought for a minute that he wouldn’t care for any company, but then decided that it might be more comfortable sitting in the old Ford than on the ground so he didn’t object.

Wisson awoke an hour later in the front seat of the Ford and saw that two of the Bacon boys, Charles and Maurice, were sitting on the loveseat and their brother Pinchon was talking with a fourth person. This fourth person was known as Alan but nobody knew his last name. He lived in a shack out behind the deserted peach cannery and kept pretty much to himself unless he’d been drinking, which he appeared to be doing at this moment. Wisson got out of the car.

“No,” he shouted. “That loveseat isn’t for sitting on. We’re just to mind it.”

The boys stood up. Alan took a swig from a bottle in a paper bag and stared at Wisson.

The air was cooler now and the shadow from the loveseat longer. Wisson told Maurice Bacon that he was disappointed to see him sitting on the wicker and he was sure Mr. Dick would have been upset to have seen it, too. He heard a rustle and turned around to see the paper bag passing from Pinchon to Alan.

“Now what is this? What is this? Pinchon, what are you doing with that bag? Nothing you need in there.” Pinchon grinned.

Alan passed the bag to Wisson. He hesitated, but it had been a long day so he took the bag and took a full swallow. The cheap whiskey burned, but it cleared his eyes and settled him down a bit.

An hour later the sun was down and only a thin band of indigo hovered in the west. The bottle was half empty and Wisson was sitting on the loveseat. He figured he was protecting it.

“Mister Dick isn’t here yet,” said Alan.

“No,” said Wisson. “And it’s near full dark, pretty near.” He was preparing to ask the Bacon boys to give him a ride home. He lived with his daughter, only about five miles down.

But then there was a scuffle in the weeds and two people stepped out and onto the road. The boy led the girl by the hand. She whispered something to him and he hitched up his pants. He was Antonio Brown, tall, light skinned, broad shoulders and not yet sixteen. She was MayAnne Spencer and MayAnne Spencer was known to be good for only one thing and it appeared that Antonio Brown had just learned about that one thing in some detail. MayAnne had a homely face but her body had been full grown since she was eleven.

In the twenty minutes it took for the sky to become full dark, Alan’s bottle was empty. MayAnne said, “That nasty old car got a radio?”

“Yeah,” said Charles, “but there’s something wrong with the speaker. It don’t play good.”

“Let me see,” said Antonio, and he slithered on his back under the dashboard. “Just a loose wire,” he called, and in seconds he had the latest song from Big Momma Thornton blaring through the tinny speaker. “And that’s not all.”

He snaked his way from under the dashboard and onto his feet. He held one hand behind his back. “Look what I found.” It was a nearly full bottle of Lord Standish Sloe Gin.

The moon came up and the level of the Lord Standish Sloe Gin went down. Twice Maurice had to start the Ford to recharge the battery. There was a slight breeze and a slight chill and about ten o’clock Pinchon and Charles dragged some brush and dry tall grass to the side of the road and lit it with a kitchen match. Alan figured the fire was far too small and went off to find some real wood. He hauled back a twelve foot elm branch which he proceeded to stomp into relatively small and burnable pieces.

MayAnne and Pinchon danced in the half-light a dozen feet from the fire. Maurice and Alan jitter-bugged and Wisson found himself wagging his foot to the beat. The gin left a sour candy taste in his mouth and only another swallow would clean it out for a few minutes. Between songs on the radio MayAnne and Pinchon left the light of the fire.

“He’s too young for all that,” said Wisson.

“Thirteen,” said Charles. “Not too young. I was fifteen before I met a willing girl.”

“How old are you now?”

“Sixteen. Mister Berryboy? How old were you your first time?”

“People ask the damnedest things nowadays. Whoever would have thought? A sixteen year old boy asking a grown man…an old grown man…about things like that. Truth is I don’t rightly know. I didn’t mark it on a calendar or anything.”
Charles asked, “You don’t remember your first time?”

“Oh, I remember just fine. Just fine.” He collected his thoughts for a minute. “School teacher’s daughter,” he said finally. “Older than me. Skinny shy girl. But she knew what she was about. I think I might have been your age. It was while my momma was still alive and she passed when I was seventeen. Maybe the summer before that.” Wisson Berryboy smiled. “Oh yes, I remember just fine. I remember a lot more than I’ll tell.”

Pinchon and MayAnne returned. Maurice had found more wood. Wisson was feeling tired.

There was a high sharp cry and Wisson saw that Alan had MayAnne by the arm and was leading her to the shadows, but she was having none of it. She tried to pull away but he held firm and she snapped back to him like an elastic band and cracked his face with her free closed fist. He stumbled backwards, still hanging tight to her arm and the pair lost their balance and fell, MayAnne on top of Alan and Alan slamming flat on his back into the fire.

Alan was screaming before he touched the embers and MayAnne, now free, was slapping him with both hands as the soot and ash and a massive shower of sparks sprayed around them. The hem of her dress caught fire and she just kept slapping. Charles and Maurice and Pinchon grasped and grappled at the pair to pull them from the fire and each other.

At last Maurice and Charles held Alan, one at each arm, as he bellowed that they were grabbing where he was burned. They didn’t let go. Pinchon had MayAnne on her back and had swatted her burning skirt until all it did was smoke. Her eyes never left Alan.

Wisson saw it all and he turned to catch his breath just in time to see that stray sparks and bits of burning elm had found the wicker love seat. Small flames ran up the left arm and started across the back. Wisson snatched up the blanket and threw it over the flames. He pulled back the blanket and sent a rolling cloud of white smoke upwards. Charles and Maurice and Pinchon stood by him. MayAnne sat by the fire still muttering curses at Alan. Alan was gone.

“Well now,” said Wisson. “Well now. This is a kind of a problem.”

Charles said, “Yeah. Mister Dick. What’s he going to say?”

“Hmm,” said Wisson Berryboy. “Hmm. If this here wicker was found to be damaged, I expect there would be trouble.”

“But?” asked Charles.

Wisson smiled and reached for the scorched arm. “Here. You grab the other arm.”

They dragged the love seat over to the remains of the fire and tipped it onto its back. It caught in seconds. It burned bright and fast and satisfying. Even MayAnne was grinning in the orange light.

A short while later they spread the ashes of the fire and of the loveseat and of the evening and scuffed it all into the dust leaving only a slightly darker patch of road for the morning to find.

The sons of Pamela Bacon offered Wisson Berryboy a ride home and as he settled into the back seat he thought to himself, “And the hell with you Mister Randolph Dick.”

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Sasha Kinski Tells a Joke

Sasha Kinski Tells a Joke

Sasha Kinski wants to tell a joke. He knows his English is very good, even though accented. Here is the joke: The teller says to a new acquaintance, “You know, I have CRS.” The listener wonders for a moment what kind of disease this is but before they can speak, the joke teller says, “CRS...can’t remember shit.” Sasha has heard this joke told twice and each time there is laughter.

And now Sasha is at a party. Two dozen or thirty people are standing in small clumps or sitting on the loft’s few furnishings. He has been conversing brilliantly, mentioning with casual humor some of the more amusing consumer products he grew up with in Poland in the seventies: the Trabant, that filthy, square and dangerous auto from East Germany, the splinter filled bathroom tissue, the counterfeit Coca-Cola. He knows the time is near for his joke.

Sasha is tall with dark, droop-eyed good looks. He wears an ill fitting sweater that seems perfect for him; very ethnic, but he doesn’t know this. The small accumulation of party goers near him likes his voice and slightly bear-like movement. One of the women, the one in the teal slacks, is considering what his big hands might mean and if she should make an effort to find out tonight. Some of the men are considering whether his mannerisms might be endearing to potential clients and whether, if they hired him, he might boost sales.

A woman has mentioned that her sister has been ill for the last week. Sasha clears his throat and says, “Well, you know, I have T.B.” Those near him pause. He clears his throat again and they take half a step back. Sasha begins to say, “Can’t remember shit,” and realizes that it doesn’t fit. He has erred, but he’s not certain of the meaning of T.B. Then he says, “Ah, T.B.—Tiny Bladder. I must go to the bathroom.” Two people point the way and step even further back as he suppresses a small cough.

Half way to the bathroom he looks back. The people are whispering and muttering to each other. The woman in the teal slacks is thinking, “What a pity. They are very big hands.”

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Sending the Dream Away

Sending the Dream Away

The postage for the manuscript was over seven dollars: a cover letter, a synopsis and the allowed thirty pages of text. And the SASE. This buys transport for dreams away from my post office to New York and home again. Not hopes and dreams; just dreams. The hope stays with me.

A half hour after posting I check my mail box and laugh a single Ha, amused that some space in my heart is already looking for reply. And so it is every day after, from the impossible first week through the implausible second week and into the vaguely possible third week, waiting to see my own handwriting on the full manila package. There is the daily hot-chill, loose-tight gut as I walk to the mail box. Nothing. Of course.

And just as well. The twenty-four hours between postal drops is profitable for feeding hope. Without the almost certain rejection, I can read, in my mind, the perfect letter on its way to me. Phrases like, “You were cruel to send only the first thirty pages. Please, please send the rest by overnight mail.” Or just, “Yes!” hand written on expensive, engraved corporate letterhead.

The hope. The unrealized potential. The tension of the foreplay of the waiting for the dream to return. Between the sending and the reply, all potential is possible. The contract. The galleys. The cover. The book signing (a mahogany desk? A smooth, worn pine deal table? A card table?) Everything that could be, could be. The reviews. Oprah. Why not?

In the time before reply, the dream, in-transit, grows and the dream feeds the hope that stayed behind. Without the boiler-plate “Dear Contributor” the ever possible “Yes” remains.

And then the manila envelope comes back and with it the manuscript and the synopsis and clipped to the upper right corner, the five by eight inch, mint green “Dear Contributor...” And then, the next day, with fresh envelopes and fresh postage, the dream is again sent flying. And the hope stays home. And Oprah is real again.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Life as a Story

I learned a lot of things as I wrote the novel, Buck and Tangee: Things That Happened. One of the things was that not every word nor every scene works. Some things may be good, but they just don't make the cut...they don't fit. That's whats happening with the following five hundred words. The book took a different turn, and Mayanne became Tangee and this brief interchange never happened. I hate to waste things so here it is.



Life as a Story

Daylight Savings Time is good. Sitting on MayAnne’s front porch at eight o’clock at night, there was still a low clear sun to squint against. The slightest breeze pushed bugs and dust and dandelion fluffs past in lazy eddies.

The used-to-be-yellow lawn chair creaked as I turned to her and said, “Want to go to a show or something? Get a pizza?”

It didn’t much matter what we did, if anything at all. The plan was that later on we’d get all naked and sweaty, but for now most anything would be okay.

Her daughter, Angel, looked over from her book. “Couldn’t we, like, do something real? What’s the point? Movies and pizza. There’s no point in that.”

“Movies are fun and pizza is food. How much more real do you need?”

“It’s like we’re wasting everything,” she said. “Time and life and everything.”

Angel is sixteen; baggy jeans and a too tight tee shirt. She was bright and she knew it and she was stuck here and she knew that, too.

“Everything has to contribute to the plot,” she said, leaning against the porch railing. “That’s how stories go. That’s how novels go. It makes sense. It’s the one thing that Mr. Eiler said last year in English that did make sense. When you write a book or something, everything has to contribute to the plot. She wagged her straight brown hair off of her face and waited for rebuttal.

“This here is life,” said MayAnne. “This ain’t no story. And I don’t want to sit in the movies. It’s a nice night and there’s some of our funny shows on TV. Pizza’s good-just remember to get your mushrooms and stuff on your half. I don’t want to have to go picking mushrooms off my side.”

MayAnne has beautiful little feet. They were in tennis shoes at the moment, but later she’d scuff them off in front of the TV and I’d rub her toes.

“This might be life,” Angel was saying, “but it wouldn’t make much of a story. It wouldn’t get a D in class. Nobody’d ever buy this book.”

“Well that’s just fine with me, Missy, because this life ain’t for selling.” MayAnne was getting a little defensive. “It’s just for living. That’s what people do. They live. It’s the books that ain’t real. Besides, what are you doing that’s so important? You ain’t got no plot either. Unless you’re doing something with Bradley that you shouldn’t be doing. That kind of plot will get you in trouble. Next thing you know, you’re going to be pregnant and I’ll be stuck with the baby and you’ll wind up on welfare or something.”

“Ma, we haven’t even done anything and you got me on welfare already.”

Of course Angel and Bradley were doing something and their plot had advanced a whole lot further than she was saying. But I figured saying something wouldn’t be all that helpful, even if it would make our story a little more interesting for a while.